Sup y'all just making a short little blog. I have been wanting to work on this website but I'm just lacking current motivation and ideas on how to innovate with it, but rest assured more is to come! I think it's just the winter weather starting to affect my mental, but I've been doin alright.
Some good news, I HAD MY FIRST WEDDING PHOTOSHOOT AS A REAL PHOTOGRAPHER!!!! The pictures came out amazing and the client loved them too!! I got a nice little chunk of change for that, which was awesome. The experience was so invaluable honestly, it makes me really excited to do that for the rest of my life! That said, it was VERY socially draining...lol...I haven't had to talk to so many new people in such a long time. But I loved it I would share some pics here but they're for the client to keep and for me to use as marketing on my professional site, but just know they came out dope!
Anyways, I'm just gonna try to keep my vibes up, I been listening to a lot of Fleshwater, doing my yearly tradition of swinging on the swing set watching the sun set and listening to music as my therapy. Keep it up y'all, we gonna make it into 2025!
My Personal Blog!
Here I will be using this page as a sort of diary and post blogs whenever I have life updates to share with the mysterious users of the cyberspace!
hiiiiiii guuuuuuys... so, elephant in the room...TRUMP FUCKING WON?!?!?!?!?!?? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
i was so tore up about that yesterday, just dread all day. feeling better today and trying to keep myself busy, got a side gig taking my friends graduation pictures! so thats fun i've just been trying to improve my photography a lot too, so i'll include some more of the recent pictures ive taken in this blog times are rough tbh, not much moneys, but still trying to enjoy every day as best as i can!!! i took today and friday off work, so i really have a 4 day weekend for the first time in months which is awesome
final news, ive started work on another site here on neocities! its for my professional photography stuff, sort of like a business site since i want my own site for free and neocities is the best option. plus, ive been using it for months now to make this site so it only made sense. n e ways take care guys, drink water, go for a little walk and enjoy yourself as much as you can!
oh also, I have a button now! if anyone wants to use it for linking to my site! i havent had any1 ask to do that yet but im excited for the first neocities neighbor ill have
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DREADFUL ASS IMAGES OF THE WEEK
Some of my new photos!
Hey guys ! Not much to talk about today I just wanted to make a little blog on here. Weekend has been chill, been obsessed with playing TF2 right now to get all the Halloween contracts done that I can! I also wanna get more into reading books...and playing some DS games...one of my friends sent me some to play so yeah, basically just enjoying myself and hyping myself up for my first official photoshoot job next month!! N E Ways, thats bout it from me, everybody enjoy your weekend / week / night whenever you're watching please leave a comment in the guestbook if u wanna give me some site feedback or just say something!! I wanna hear from the peeps reading my website!
HAUNTED ASS IMAGES OF THE WEEK
WHATS UP NEOCITIES B) So yesterday I went out to take photos with a buddy of mine and the results are honestly really dope, I'm so proud of myself!! And it makes me so much more excited for the wedding I'm going to be shooting for soon! I love photography so much omg guys. I'm gonna be putting some of the pictures I took down below in this post, which will make it a little different from other ones since it'll be more images, not text, but I just wanna share my pics :)
It was so chill at this spot we went to, perfect weather, perfect sunlight angles, so calm and peaceful. I loved it, and I'm gonna be (trying to) take more pictures soon! So stay tuned for that as well! Will probably upload a few of these to my unsplash as well but we'll see. Anyways, enjoy the pics!!
HEEEEEEEEY GUYS >:0 IM BACK Sorry it's been a minute y'all, life got the best of me, plus ADHD making me have wavering motivation to actually spend my time working... But! in this blog I'm just gonna give you guys all my updates and the plans I have for my life and the site right now!
Firstly I'll talk about what just happened with my job! I was trying to apply for a slightly higher level position than the one I have now, and I applied like shortly after my last blog, but just earlier this week I got the answer! ................ I DIDN'T GET IT Now that was kind of a kick in the ass when I heard that, especially when I heard I wasn't chosen due to "lack of experience" and I've been there longer than 50% of the people in there...oh well! I was bummed out about it for a day, but I was able to pick myself up the next day. It didn't happen for a reason, and at least it's less stress and responsibility on me. I can just keep chillin how I have been
Next, my new obsession, CYBERPUNK 2077 In the time since my last blog I've beaten the whole game as well as started a new save on very hard mode! I could talk about this game for a long time but I'm gonna save that for a new media tab entry! (I'll hyperlink it once I make it after this blog xd [update: i did]) I'm probably gonna buy phantom liberty here pretty soon because I am immersed heavily in that world. Such a good game now and to me it really seems like the devs are trying to show their passion for the game despite its launch which was probably so shitty due to pressure from publishers and investors. Lame!
Last big update! Soon I will be having MY FIRST WEDDING PHOTOSHOOT!!!!!! I'm so excited omg. This is like, my real ticket into the photography job space! So I'm trying to take advantage of my medicine and newfound motivation to prepare myself. Gonna practice my shooting and editing a ton. This also inspired me to do something else now that I have some html / css experience which is to create a new professional website for my photography! Using neocities I can literally just create it from scratch myself! TBH, some parts of creating a "professional" website seem even easier than creating this one lol. I'm so excited! Not sure if I'm going to link the professional site on here anywhere since this is my personal space, but either way I think it will be a great way to market myself and have a spot on the internet to show off my small business!
Overall feeling very good. I'm never going to TRULY stop working on this site or forget about it, but there will definitely be small periods of a hiatus lol. Life always comes first, but I love having this to come back to. To everybody who reads this, enjoy your weekend / day / night! Keep spreading joy and your individuality everywhere, harbor a community and most importantly ALWAYS HAVE FUN!!!! NOW...FOR THE MOMENT YOU'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR!
DIABOLICAL IMAGES OF THE WEEK
COOL ASS WINAMP SKIN OF THE WEEK
SUP INTERNET USERS So wow crazy past few days for me. Last weekend I got sick and had to call out of work Monday, I woke up and first thing I did was throw up into the toilet. You know its bad when it just comes up on its own That only lasted for like 2 days though thankfully, so I could work almost the full week. Other than that I been working on the site slowly, leveling up in adventure quest worlds and playin some TF2!
ALSO. I've discovered the glory of soulseek and i've also installed WINAMP with a ton of skins! And it is so much fun! ALSO ALSO, this whole discovery made me realize just how SHITTY spotifys streaming quality is! I feel like I'm listening to these songs for the first time again, they're so clear! I can hear them omg!!!
Final update for this week, I saw Alien: Romulus in theaters with my GF on opening night! I'm gonna drop my early review in the media tab for y'all since my viewers are special If you enjoy Alien or are curious make sure you check it out!!! With that I'm out for todays blog guys, thanks again for checking out my site and reading my blogs!
WICKED ASS IMAGES OF THE WEEK
MY COOL ASS WINAMP SKIN RN
HI GUYS!!!! SO SORRY it's been a minute but I've just been addicted to playing TF2! And I was going to work on the site but then I got SICK!!! I'm still a tiny bit sick now but feeling much better and I'll probably be better very soon
Besides TF2 I've also gotten back into one of the old flash games I used to play as a kid, which I hope some of you know about, AdventureQuest Worlds!! It is still active with around 2k players online every day. It's surprisingly still super fun lol so I've been leveling up my old account which btw im SO glad I was able to still log into after all this time! Here's a cool screenshot of my characters DRIP so yall can see how epic i am
Besides all that, a random thought that entered my head is that I should apply to be an assistant manager at work! I've been there a decent amount of time, I think my manager likes me, and I know I could run that place good!!! oh also more moneys lol. but fr tho I wanna set an example of a good manager because we have some that kinda stink ngl.
I'm gonna keep doing my best to work on this my motivation comes and goes but I'm never gonna truly leave this site ever, im always gonna come back to it sooner or later its too fun to not! and i love seeing how many people have viewed my site. i hope it brings some good vibes :) thank yall for reading / visiting, have an awesome day!!!
WICKED ASS IMAGES OF THE WEEK
Hello internet citizens!! Life has been very good for me recently. I am rather busy so I don't have as much time on it as I would like, but I think that's a good thing. If I still keep up things to finish, I'll always have a reason to come back and work on this. I really love having my own corner of the internet, and I'm learning a lot on the way as well! I'm still dedicated to updating this site, and my new meds have definitely been helping with that!
Now that my ADHD is treated a bit work has become a lot easier. I can keep focused on working, I don't feel anxious about work or anything, I have less social anxiety and I can think way more clearly! I love it!! It's also becoming more easy to have motivation to do things that otherwise would have been troublesome or annoying. I feel like I'm finally acting like an adult in a way which is good.
I've been playing a LOT of TF2 because now that the bots are gone I can actually enjoy the game. I'm also pretty sure my meds make me better at gaming because I can focus better, LOL! Other than that I've just been enjoying myself each day as much as I can, and working hard. I love the period I'm in in my life right now, even though I'm struggling a little financially I am enriching my life through the people I hang out with and my experiences. I am just very grateful for what I have!
And I suppose the last major update for right now would be that I got baptized this past Saturday! Since I wasn't a religious person growing up this was a pretty big moment for me, I enjoy improving my relationship with God and knowing I can rely on him. It isn't for everybody, but I found a way to start that worked for me.
I'm just chillin rn enjoying the smallweb, it's raining outside right now and I've got some lofi beats playing and I'm enjoying life! Cheers to everybody who checks out my site, thank you so much, and I hope ya'll have a wonderful morning/evening :)
Images of the week!!! (the last ones broke but these ones won't)
LIFE IS PRETTY GOOD RN GUYS B)
I got diagnosed web citizens! I have Inattentive and Hyperactive ADHD! So basically I cannot focus on things and my brain is hyperactive constantly But since I've been diagnosed I have also started medication and like...crazily enough its actually HELPING in my life it makes work a lot more tolerable and I can focus on things a lot better which makes life way easier. I just feel chill most of the time now instead of crazy tired and cant stop thinking and overstimulated AAAAA but thats over now for the forseeable future hopefully
But other than that great news life has pretty much been working and grinding to get that bag fr. I will have more motivation to work on this site though, I don't think I ever want to stop doing this and updating it, this form of communication on the web and websites like these are super important to internet culture. Long shall my website live on!! I have some free time every weekend at least to update the blog, but other sections are more intimidating to work on code-wise TwT but ye signing out for now, wanted to share my good news that my mental health is finally improving!!
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, TEAM FORTRESS 2 BOTS ARE OFFICIALLY GONE!!!
I was able to play ACTUAL full matches of casual today without seeing any aimbotting/hacking bots :0 HOW CRAZY. I'm glad this finally happened even if it took a while thank god dude omg.
Besides that, this will be a pretty short blog. Basically just been busy with work, on that grind making money for my girl. She made a 99 on her test in school which im so proud of because her professor said thats the highest anyone has ever made on a test in her class!! Yay :) I burned myself out of Wuthering Waves already lol even though I will keep playing it. I have my psychiatrist appointment in a few days so if I get medicated for ADHD expect me to be MUCH more productive on this site!! I just don't wanna deal with having to create new pages really lol, even though I know I would enjoy it. By the way, if anyone adds me on SpaceHey or Owler from this site let me know! I'd love to know if my website is engaging.
Also, I started watching The Boys!!! In the time since my last blog post, I've caught up to the newest episode from the very beginning lol, I love it a lot. I'm thinking I'll put that down as my first show in my media section I end up creating...at some point!
Anyways last thing I've got for yall is I'm planning another photoshoot with some of my coworkers, will come in the near future. My idea for this next shoot is basically like designer model ads you see on the side of walls at malls or something. I know I can do it, just scheduling it with other busy adults is the issue. I hope everyone has a good day/week/month!!
Bonus, here is a polaroid pic of myself I took at work. Face reveal!!!!
Been a minute since I got on here to edit things, i've gotten myself addicted to wuthering waves....LOL! So i've mainly been playing that and wastiny my time, but im comparing it to genshin impact and by that metric its TONS better. They're way more generous and the gameplay is infintely better imo. I kinda stopped Chrono Trigger even though I'm very close to the end... I've also somewhat run out of ideas of what to add to the site besides adding to my blog? Probably gonna add a dream journal section at some point too since i enjoyed doing that and i havent in a while. Probs gonna use the last link at the top to have a "MEDIA" page where I share the different shows/movies/games im enjoying and have finished before!
Also, I'm thinking about making a movie!!! kinda. its just ideas at this point but me and two of my coworkers wanna make a little short film thats horror-y and in the found footage / vlog style, which I really enjoy personally. i think itll be fun but we dont have a time frame yet, maybe filming by fall since itll be cooler outside and also we wanna film some parts at dark and im not tryna wait until 9 pm for it to get fully dark, thats like when i go to bed!! makes me feel old lmao.
Anyways besides all that, work has been busy, and I've also been doordashing to keep up some extra income. I can't wait until I'm not poor lol I'm gonna keep working on this here and there but for the most part the site is finished, just minor tweaks ahead. I love the small web! Have a blessed day everyone reading!
Wow! Making a website is difficult!! Lol. I am having a lot of fun doing this though, and I'm learning a lot in the process. I don't think I'll ever be fully done with this website, but it's nice to have a project I can always come back to and tweak every now and then. It really is such a nice distraction and escape from my work life which has become so boring and same-y every day. For reference, I work at Goodwill. Shit kind of sucks over there haha. But not to be a downer!
I will keep on trucking with this website and bring a unique web experience to everyone! I'm very inspired by a lot of other users on neocities and people who host their own retro-style sites, I just find it the peak of creativity online. That's how the internet should be, at least in my mind, a place for everyone to express themselves exactly as they'd like. Maybe the difficulty of HTML and CSS are intimidating a lot of people though, and I don't blame them. I seem to be having the most trouble with div elements because sometimes I'll try to add something neat and my WHOLE PAGE will shift! Annoying! Anyways, I'll keep updating this page just like the others! I hope everyone enjoys checking in on my site for updates and new goodies!